Have You Written The Book Yet?

In one of your radio show interviews you mentioned a book that you were writing having something to do with the deals that we make and break with ourselves. Have you written that book and where can I get a copy.

I have set it aside for the time being but this is the premise: From the earliest of times we begin making deals with ourselves. Whether we begin by bargaining with our parents, god or ourselves the story goes … please if only, I promise I will….

This phenomenon happens universally in every culture across every nation and religion.

The process begins from a basic pact or wish for something that is out of our control to occur.  We offer to give something up to get what we are wanting in this moment. Over time we complicate this unspoken deal with ourselves in the most detailed oriented way, something that consumes our sensibility until…. We have received what WE HAVE BARGAINED FOR /ASKED FOR/PRAYED FOR /SOLD OUR SOUL FOR. And then it happens. We break the very deal with ourselves that we have bargained for!  We begin backpedaling and renegotiating, rationalizing and explaining our position.The part of this that is so fascinating to me is that I believe that in breaking the very deal that we have made with ourselves, we have actually let ourselves down. We have momentarily turned our back on our connection with ourselves. Over time this pattern of behavior begins to whittle away at the very core of our connection with ourselves and the hidden, yet very clear message becomes that we cannot trust ourselves to keep our own word to ourselves.  This unconscious belief begins to show up in the distrustful feelings and relationships that we come to develop about and with others. It is always far easier for people to project their own feelings about themselves onto others creating yet another disconnect within ourselves. The real and mostly unconscious message becomes…. If I cannot trust myself whom can I trust?